So... I haven't posted since... March...ish... yea.
I've been slacking. lol

Quick Update:

- B & I never went out

- I went to prom with a guy in April and we dated for a month

- It didn't feel right so I broke it off

- We're friends now

- I started dating this amazing girl

- I was grounded all summer for it

- We've been together for over six months

- She goes to school 1000 miles away from me

- I took a trip to visit her over Thanksgiving without telling my parents. Then I moved out.

- Now I'm sitting here writing this

Thought y'all might like an update.

So that girl from my chem class is no longer in my chem class. She dropped. She did say she misses talking to me all the time. (me too) She just broke up with her boyfriend. I still don't have a chance. She said I couldn't even be her rebound. Oh well, I'll settle for friend.

I'm going to washington DC on the 13th. Staying through the 18th. Now I can get corrupted by all those politicians. lol. Yeah, that's really all I have to say for now.

oh one more thing. I love youtube. you can watch movies...entire movies...for free. NOW i'm done. Completely.

So... you know that girl in my chem class that I was totally hitting on and almost got filed for sexual harassment. that was a fragment wasn't it... well anyway... I'm going to dinner with her tonight. And a few other people... but still... she invited me to dinner with her.

I'm so happy.

Oh, and I also came out to her about a week ago. It went quite well. She told me that she thought I was a lesbian. She also said most people do. What I cant figure out is how do most people know already. I told 10 people. Exactly 10. And I know for a fact that not a single one told anyone else. Am I just that obvious... or maybe it's my hitting on this girl... all the time... in public... hehe... that's probably it.

*Does Happy Dance*

I did almost get charged with sexual harassment. Yeah. In the words of our former president, "I did not have sexual relations with that woman."

Lets start from the beginning, why don't we. Friday there was a fight at school. One guy had knocked another to the floor, pinned him against the wall, and started kicking his head. The attacker is/was my crushes boyfriend.
In chemistry that day (this is before the fight) i declared that it was our three month. (of me chasing her around and pick up lines). We were playing tic tac toe on the whiteboard and i wrote (while she wasn't looking) b loves e. (be will represent my crush and e myself.) She got a little upset and erased it. I went on and wrote that it was our three month anniversary. She, again, erased it. then she turned her back to me, pinned me up against the board and tried to get the marker out of my hand. Her being so close i whispered in her ear, "you like this don't you" she didn't move, then slammed my hand into the board thinking i would drop the marker. I didn't then she moved away from me and flipped me off. I said, "really, you would?" That made her a little more upset. To change the subject she said "do you want to see the cutest guy ever?" sure why not. It was a little boy, her cousin, I think. He was cute. Then she said you wanna see the cutest girl ever. I said " is it you?" She said "no, my friend" I said b should ask her friend out for me. End of day.

Saturday... I texted her asking if she was still mad at me. She said not at me but at her "idiot bf". I asked if it was about the fight and she said it was. her friend (the cute one) was there trying to comfort her cuz she was crying. The following is the texts I sent and recieved. (again, b is my crush, e is me, c is her friend)

C: Hey this is c...becky is my biotch...lay off
E: Okay?
C:Yeah... we're going out...so shes my gf so stop hitting on her
E: So I can start hitting on you then?
B: Moved on already huh?
E: Not if u'll go out with me. Although we could have a threesome.
C: No cuz i'm happy with my lesbian lover b... i like girls that actually LOOK like girls.
E: Ouch.
C: Yeah what!
B: i'm sry shes just mean i didnt kno she would b mean caus then i wouldnt have let her text u
C: Dude ur fucking nasty...leave b alone or i'll file u 4 sexual harrassment
E: Fine
C: Idk if u talk to her bt if u talk lesbian shit to her again I WILL file u
E: Fine i'll stop
E: & sry i wuznt tryin 2 offend ne1
C: THANK YOU!
C: Well u just need 2 watch what u say next time... c u come on way too strong... see... b and i both have BF and we're happy with our GUYS... we're straight... sorry
E: I knew that it was just supposed 2 b a joke sry
B: im really sry i kno ur joking
C: hey... no worries...i won't bother u anymore
E: Thanks. And may I ask why the sudden change of heart?
C: Cuz i realize that i was being a total bitch 2 u and i dont even no u... sorry

Yeah. That was close. So i got to spend all of chemistry less than an inch from b. We sat on the same desk. i love group work. hehe. she told me c wont file and realized that all this was a joke. (yeah... a joke... i'll just let her keep on thinking that) So i'm safe for now. Although i think i'll lay off some of the pick up line text messages. wouldn't want to risk another threat from c now would we.

I'll finish there cuz i realize this is kinda long. More later.

ok... so...
In chemistry we were doing something with the metric system so I said "King Henry Drives Backwards Down Curvy Mountains" (Kilo, Hecta, Deka, base, Deci, Centi, Milli). My crush said not down my mountains. I replied no, but I do. It took her a second to get it. Then she laughed. Then she realized that I said that to her. Yeah.

So I said, "You know what would make my holidays happy? Spending them with you." Her reply was "Well if my boyfriend is still grounded, then maybe you will." *Jumped with joy*

I said will you go to the Winter Wonderland Dance with me. She said she doesn't go to those. I said will you go to Prom with me. She said (again) if her boyfriends not grounded. Man... I have to try really hard to get him grounded for life. Or at least until after prom.

*floating on air*

She was going to take me to the movies this week but I work everyday but thursday after school and she works thursday through sunday. Yeah, that sucks. So the movies are going to be my xmas present from her. *Smiles*

Oh, I also have a few friends that are going to nominate us for cutest couple even though we're not a couple. She says her boyfriends jealous. Now I want her to be happy... but I'd prefer if it was with me(if you catch my drift) I'm not trying to split them up. I'd never want to do that. But I wouldn't mind being her rebound.

I cant wait to see if we'll be cutest couple in the school paper!!!
I cant wait for her to take me to the movies!!!
I cant wait for Winter Wonderland and Prom!!!

*cant believe she's not dreaming*

Oh, and I'm not sure if she know's that I'm being serious or if she still thinks I've been joking with her.

Oh, and one last thing. I just texted her saying "Can I drive backwards down your curvy mountains" - havent gotten a reply yet.

Ok, now this is really the last thing. I just finished reading Totally Joe by James Howe. Really Good Book!!!

So, since California is taking over the role of the dairy state...(happy cows come from california)... Wisconsin is now ... are you ready?... THE GOAT MILK STATE!!!!

Yeah.

I didn't really do that either. So this probably wont be as funny as the others but I'll try. The others were completely true and I was not trying to be funny but am glad they came out that way. (no pun intended)

I asked my crush if she was taking me to the movies. (I needed a confirmation). She said it depends. I replied " on what... my motives?" She anwered yes. Ok. so... knowing that my motives are no good, (although I'm not sure that she's sure what my motives are) she's taking me to the movies. (Poor crush, she thinks I've just been messing around and joking with her this whole time).

She might be dropping Chemistry. Which means she wouldn't be in any of my classes. She is reconsidering though.... I hope because of me. She said it was because she has good friends in the class but I'm the only one she talks to. :) Yep, That made my day.

So... I'm expecting a call from her so we can study this weekend. (Well, that's what she thinks she's calling for) no, really, we will study because she needs to get her grade up in Chem and NOT drop!!! So I'll put my "motives" on hold and help her with her Chemistry.(the kind we learn in school - duh) But I'm happy as long as I spend time with her. And remember... MOVIES!!! Yeah!

I actually didn't do that today.

I told my crush that she should break up with her boyfriend and hook up with me. She said no. I told her that she can stay with her boyfriend and she should hook up with me (I wouldn't tell). She said no. I said she and her boyfriend should have an open relationship. She laughed.

I told her that she should take me out to the movies. She didn't reply. I said, "so you're not going to take me to the movies?!" (in a pathetic voice). She said, "no, I will."

I am extremely happy.

Maybe I should go grope straight people in crowded areas now.

If you've been following my escapades, here's the next installment. I couldn't resist today.

Last night I texted my crush asking her if her not being able to show up for a study group meant we weren't going to sleep together that night. Her reply was "sorry, you're going to have to sleep alone tonight"

Today in Chem, I can't remember what we said exactly but I do remember it ending in me asking her to marry me. She said, "awkward". Yeah, that's her reply to almost everything I say.
So there was some thing that she needed help with and she said," can you show me how to do it." then she paused and said "the problem" and started laughing hysterically making me laugh hysterically.(I know run-on)
I said, " come over tonight around nine" Yeah, that's when it got a little awkward. I said I can show you... not that I know how. Her reply, don't worry I do. So I said... alright, come over tonight and we can practice.

After school, I texted her to remind her to come over tonight. she replied, awkward. so I said I was serious. she said I know. so I once again replied, what time should I expect you. I 'm waiting for an answer now.

To bad she has a boyfriend. Yeah. I can still try can't I.

Oh and sorry about the decline of my grammer as I progressed. I got a little excited.

So, in my previous journal entry, I talked about how I told my crush I'd sleep with her...
Here's what happened today...

In calculus, we were talking about this again and one guy told me he's eighteen. I said I wouldn't sleep with him. This other guy said he's still not eighteen. I said I wouldn't sleep with him either. He said I didn't expect you to sleep with that many people without getting to know them. I started counting off silently on my fingers how many people I would sleep with "just like that" (think actors, Rockstars, my crush, etc.) The guy says all at once?! I say, " yeah, in that little room next to my attic with all the whips" - I don't really have this room.......waiting till I move out.

Lunch... I decided not to mention sleeping with people anymore so S started counting everytime I did mention it. (I wasn't very good at not mentioning it... 5 times by the end of lunch)

Chemistry.... S is still keeping count and says I should count how many times you think about saying it too. I said were up to somewhere around 120. My crush, not listening to the entire conversations says 120 what? I say I thought about sleeping with you 120 times today. (not really... it was more like 500 but saying that would have been really awkward. So she says, "awkward!!!"

Yeah, she was supposed to come to my house tonight to do chemistry but she just texted me saying that she had to go to her grandma's. I replied, " so you won't sleep with me tonight?! but..." She hasn't replied yet. Darn.

That's all I have for now. Yeah...

Ok, so here's the whole story. One of my friends, lets call him K, was complaining a few weeks ago about his B in Spanish. I know, it's horrible. So he said something about his "stupid Spanish teacher being a lesbian." I replied, "Why's that bad, were you planning on sleeping with her to raise you're grade?" He jokingly replied "yes."

Today at lunch I was talking to another one of my friends, lets call her S, whom is in the same Spanish class. She was complaining about a test she took and didn't do so well in. Me, remembering the conversation with K, which S was a part of, told S to go sleep with the teacher to raise her grade. S kept saying no and got a little uncomfortable. I said, "what, do you want me to sleep with her to raise you're grade?" Lunch became very awkward at this point seeing as no one had any way to reply to that.

After lunch, in my chemistry class, I explained the above to my crush whom sits next to me. Then I said, "I wouldn't sleep with the teacher... it would be illegal. Although I would sleep with you." Very awkward long silence from her and uncomfortable look on her face at this point. I continued, "Oh, no wait, you're 18. Damn. Guess I wouldn't sleep with you. But there's always next year."

Yeah, so apparently telling people you'd sleep with them makes them VERY uncomfortable.

Woohoo!!! Blizzard!!! I love snow... when it means there's a snow day. (there's a 1% chance of this happening in the city that I live in. We usually have to go to school no matter how much it snows. But if the news says Blizzard, that's an automatic snow day.) I haven't had a snow day since second grade. I'm so excited!!! We've had cold days, though. Yeah, when it's 20 some odd degrees below zero the school doesn't feel it's safe for us to leave the house, i guess.
To make this day even better, I just saw my grade on my AP Gov't test and I got a B on it which is much better than the D i got on the last one. So now I have a 95% average - A. Woohoo, again.
Now if only that girl from my AP Chem class would dump her boyfriend, and call me right now. hehe.

So I was talking to two of my friends yesterday (I know, shocker, right?) and, well here's the conversation. It made me a little uncomfortable.

Friend 1: I'm so hungry
Friend 2: That sucks, I actually ate breakfast. Life cereal. I know, awesome right?
Friend 1: (to friend 2) you're gay!
Me: Yeah I actually had a good breakfast this morning. I got up early enough to make myself an omlet.
Friend 1: (to me) you're gay, too! ... well you are.
Me: (face goes bright red)

So, yeah, Friend 2 know's I'm a lesbian but I've never actually told her and she's never confronted me about it. Friend 1 told her a while ago because I scared shitless to tell her so I had Friend 1 do it. But it was still an uncomfortable situation. I'm trying not to come out to anyone else,(repecting my parents wishes), but it's kinda hard when you're friend says pretty loudly, "You're gay, literally," isn't it? So I didn't know what to say. There was an awkward silence. That's about it. Yeah.

And yeah, I do like Pink Floyd... a lot.( in reference to the title of this and my last journal entry - both being lyrics from Pink Floyd songs)

I just got promoted!!!! I'm so happy. So I work dairy/frozen at a Pick 'n Save and my manager was talking to me today and she was like, yeah, so I volunteered you to get trained to check. So, now I'm going to work dairy, frozen, and be a cashier. I hope this means a raise too. I can just see the money flowing in. lol.

In other news, my grandfather(or something of the like, I'm not sure exactly what he was to me) died a few days ago. My parents went to the funeral this morning. I don't remember the guy. I think I've only seen him once or twice and I haven't hear one good thing about him ever. I'm not celebrating that he's dead. It really makes no impact on my life. The title was just for the first paragraph.

Also, I was supposed to have a study group with some people in my chemistry class by now I wont because I have to go to my grandpa's for lunch tomorrow. That means I don't get to spend time with "the girl form my AP Chem class." So That's about all for today. Yeah.

Yeah, so we didn't have a study group because everyone had to work at that time. Yeah, that sucks. So we are going to have study group Saturday.

There's something I'm not understanding here. This girl that I'm crushing on, I asked her to call the guy that is in our study group because I couldn't find his number. So I text her asking if she called and she said she did and that it was the wrong number. What I'm not understanding: 1.)There were two numbers and she only calls one, 2.) She only calls one time - what if she hit the wrong key when dialing?!? 3.)I called the guy when I finally found his number and it wasn't the wrong number, 4.)If the guy couldn't come that wound mean it would have just been me and her, 5.)Was she hitting on me even though she has a boyfriend?

Maybe I'm looking too far into this (like usual). I hope not, because it would be really cool if she did want to hook up. Yeah. But I wont get my hopes up. (Doesn't mean I'll stop flirting with her though. hehe)