Dear you,

I am going to start this by saying I am writing without any hope, without any motivation. I have wished so hard that by writing to you, I would be able to convince you that you should love me. That is not fair of me to expect you to change who you are, and so I write to oasis instead.

I dream about you nearly every night. I dream about kissing you or you kissing me but the whole time I am as disconnected with you as I am in real life. You are my best friend and I love every minute with you, but the closeness I want between us that will never happen creates a barrier between us as I will never be able to talk to you like I want to talk to you or tell you how much I truly love you.

I love you. I would do anything for you. You are the only anchor I have to this world. I feel so lost all the time and you are the one who makes me feel okay. Maybe it's because I know I will never have you, that I have fallen so deeply in love with you.

I can live the rest of my life and never feel that much love for anyone else. I can go the rest of my life and accept losing touch with my high school classmates, and my college classmates, but never you. I'll always need you, and it scares me so much to think this isn't what it is for you.

I don't know how to finish this, so I will stop here.