So he got glasses the other day.
He's so hot >.<
I really don't feel like I'm making any progress.
I try to be friends with him, but we're so different, so I'm just stuck staring at him; It's unsettling.
At least in Music class I get to sit behind him, regardless if I'm heaving my Alto Sax at the same time. I wish I'd taken flute or clarinet ; I'd have a reason to sit next to him.
I wish I could get closer to him, but I'm both scared for me and for him; What if I somehow hurt him?
I don't want to stop trying.
I don't want to keep trying.
I feel like such a spoiled jerk.
I want everything, but I'm afraid of consequences.
Why am I such a bad person?