I was late to school again this morning. And to top it all off, today was a day 3 and, oh, what a coincidence - I FORGOT LAB CLASS. I had to stay after today, fill out another fucking plan for "cutting" lab class, and now I have to stay after two more times because of my stupidity. I have enough shit to deal with without the school jumping down my throat because I'm late a few times.

I'm on the verge of dropping out. And if I decide to do that, I better do it soon before they change the drop out age to 18. What the hell would I do if I dropped out? Sit on my lazy ass a little more? I can't get a job because my anxiety holds me back.

I am at a loss.

Thanks you for the comments on my poem. It may convey pain and emotion, but not nearly as much as I am feeling.

We might have to put our kitten down. =( It brings me to tears just thinking about it. He is so precious, and I love him sooooo much. I hope to God that we don't have to. But he's so sick, and he's just getting worse. He's bleeding from his nose a lot. But he's still eating, and he runs around a bit. I don't get it. My poor baby. I know he's my little sister's cat, but I've grown so close to him, he's my baby too. =( I love him so much. I hope there's some way we can get around this. I would do anything. I can't stand to think that even later tonight he might not be curled up in my lap, sound asleep. =( I love him, I love him, I love him. I want him to be okay.